Dispatches from PostPartumLand
I can’t believe it’s been over a month already since Owen was born. I’m in one of those funky warps where time is simultaneously crawling and speeding by. I have not been online much and in some ways it has been nice to be so disconnected.
Finance-wise, things have been uneventful. We haven’t yet received our portion of the bill for the birth, but it’ll be biggish, because our midwife is “out of network” [as if our insurance had “in network” midwives … ] and it’s early enough in the year that we haven’t chipped much away yet on our yearly deductable. On the upside, we’ve been squirrelling money away into our HSA this year, so it’ll at least be paid in pre-tax dollars.
Unfortunately, like last time, I’m in the midst of post-partum depression, and I’m just hunkering down and waiting for it to pass.
The children are, of course, as beautiful and awesome as usual.
Jenn said,
June 8, 2006 @ 5:04 am
Oh, I’m so sorry to hear about the depression. Is there anything they can give you or do? My prayers are with you and your family.
Terri said,
June 8, 2006 @ 2:29 pm
Well, post partum depression is a funny thing. I’ve dealt with garden-variety depression in my life before, and it’s not like I’m wondering why I’m depressed [hormones, sleep dep] or if it’ll ever end. [Yup.]
I’m not sure what, if anything, to do about it in my case. It’s in that gray area where it’s not too bad that something has to be done, but it’s just bad enough to be a real dragging bother. I think I just need to make sure it isn’t just me and the two sprogs all day alone in the house for 12 hours. I’ve got a local teen who’s going to be coming in once or twice a week for a few hours a day, and a post-partum doula to cover a few more hours on a few more days. I think that’ll get me over the hump.
I only have a few friends in town, but they all have kids [some have second ones due soon, as well!] so there’s only so much I can see them. We don’t have a lot of family nearby, and they’ve got their own busy lives, too.
I take comfort in knowing that even if it doesn’t seem like there’s a light at the end of the tunnel, it does get better and easier. And my hormones will eventually even out!
Mom2fur said,
June 11, 2006 @ 4:58 pm
I hope the depression passes quickly. Please, if it lasts too much longer, seek out some help, okay? It isn’t ‘just the blues.’ Feel better quickly!!! XXXOOO